A devotion entry

I've wrote a summary before about my life's tstimony, so this is the condensed version.

I came from a  very hard and difficult childhood. The flowers were wilted in my garden and I lacked water. I only peered through an old discolored window envisioning something better than what was surrounding me. I knew nothing of a world worthy of happiness. What I understood was constant disappointment and heartbreak.

Tears would trickle across my face each night as a young girl hoping for my dad to come back again. I wanted a close realtionship with him so badly but knew I could not make him choose me over the things of the world. Of course, once I learned of a heavenly Father who did want me, my life changed.

I don't remember the exact date when God revealed Himself to me through salvation but the image of that day is burned within my heart forever. The day began with me preparing for my grandmother to take me to VBS at church. The only time I was able to attend church functions or services was when my grandma rescued me from my life of shambles for the day.

At VBS I requested prayer for my dad as I had many times before. A lady prayed in a way I was unfimilar with, and she seemed to bypass my request for my dad and instead prayed for salvation for my family. I knew church allowed me to escape, but I didn't know of the personal relationship being offered with open arms.

It was later that evening when I was getting ready for bed that my loneliness was creeping up again ready to show it's ugly head. I had come to a crossroads where, even at age 9 or 10, I felt I had a choice to make concerning my future. Would I continue crying in exhaustion for others to make a move on my behalf, or would I be adopted in by the Heavenly Father I had casually heard about in the midst of craft time. I decided that night was the last one I would spend crying tears of pain from a lonely torment and instead God began a work in my life to turn those tears into joy.

Joy came in the morning for me, and I could never express my gradititude for God's adoption plan.